Impeccable word

I have an impeccable word when it comes to my friends and family.  I've been thinking this morning do I have an impeccable word with myself.  I don't!   I say I'm going to do something for me and I never follow through.  Do I not deserve my impeccable word?  I DO!  So why don't I follow through?  I don't know.  This is something i'm going to have to work on during 2012.

It's time to be true to myself just as much as I am to my friends and family.  Maybe this is what they mean about always putting others first and not yourself.  I told myself for every holiday movie I watch I will do 10 mind of exercise while watching.  I've done that once.  I tell myself I'm going to lose this weight, but I don't.   I say I'm going to keep a clean house then I slack.  I don't keep my promises to myself.  Now how to learn to do this.  I deserve it!

How to do this?  First I need to sit down and write down what I want and then think about how i'm going to get there.  I know there will be times that life will vary and I will have to be flexible in getting to my goals.  I can do this!

I need to remember this.

dream 8/27/11

I had one strange dream it was very scary.  I had a dream that my friend Amy was driving and she had her oldest daughter in her car and her car got hit and she died but her daughter lived.  Then later in the dream kevin disappeared and i couldn't find him and i was so lost. I felt so lost losing amy and then not being able to find kevin.

dream 8/22/11

I had a dream the other night that was really weird.  The girls were sitting outside reading a book, the weather was nice, then all of a sudden this guy came out of nowhere.  he said he was from Pakistan.  The guy walks up to the sliding glass door and wants to come in and i wasn't sure if i wanted to let him in, but i opened it cause he was on the other side with the girls.  Nothing happened.  Pakistan was the main word that i remembered from the dream.

I can't tell if this is premonition dream or a dream that holds a message for me.